Everyone just wants to be loved!
More and more I feel and see that I need more, maybe too much. I'm loved. I know that.
I got little kids, family, they love me. I know it. I feel it. I see it.
But there's another kind of love and wanting that I think is evading me.
I spent a lot of time trying to be "that person" to people. I spent many of years being the one that tried to save someone. Loving someone when no one else seemed to. Believing in them when others turned their back. Offering pieces of myself so they could be whole.
I thought I could "save" them. But who was I to even think they needed saving, or wanted me to save them. Maybe I was the selfish one. I don't know.
Some of these people are still my friends. One is probably my best friend. Now I just want someone to love me like that. To see I need that type of care. I need someone to love me more than I love them. To save me. To be there.
And it upsets me that I feel this way. I'm just tired of giving away myself, being the strong one, being the grounded one.
I wanna be saved.
Maybe I'm just being selfish.
