I worry I'm going to break my kids. Not physically. But who they are. With my nagging, my impatience, my angry words.
My daughter is the most good hearted beautiful old souled person I know and I am scared every time I "lose" it and yell and rant and ask why are you doing that, that I'm breaking her piece by piece.
I don't want to ruin her. She was sent to me for a reason and I love her. She was put on this earth to make a difference and I know she will. As long as I guide her and not push her.
And my son...oh he is something else. Been all boy from the beginning. Rough, tough, and ready to rumble. However, he's also a lover. A big cuddler, loves hugging, and secret kiss sequences, and hates sleeping alone with no one around to reach out and touch.
The essence of who he is is remarkable. I fear I will break it with my screaming, and scary voice, and inability to just stop for a minute and breathe.
They are wonderful. And I strive to wake up and see the world as they do. To take a moment and look around...to see the world of wonders and enjoy it. I can only hope theu teach me and that I can guide them and stop pushing.
Just breathe, and love, and don't break the kids...
