Most days im sure im not only failing as a mother but as a human being.
Theres always so much yelling and after the yelling self-loathing because of it.
Im trying to bring in peace to my heart. To let go of all the stuff I can't control. To find forgiveness for those things that have hurt me most. Whether I did it to myself or had it done to me. Im trying to let go of anger and just....
b.r.e.a.t.h.e.
Im thankful for this life. Im blessed in this life. I am blessed and lucky I was chosen to be these kids mom. And everyday I find myself angry or yelling about little things I feel downright shitty. I feel like im letting them down and teaching them wrong.
I love them with every fiber of my soul and pray they know that above all else. I pray im not leading them astray. I just wish I could be heard without screaming like a crazed lunatic. It hurts me. It hurts them. We all lose.
Everyday I feel like a failure. As a human but mostly as a mom.
